|I'm a wedding photographer now|
I don't know how I found my way back onto writing on this blog, yet here I am 3:02 in the morning. I guess I find myself on here sometimes reflecting on my life with him- searching for where things went incredibly wrong. My life has changed so much, I've changed so much. In this process of loosing the man I loved for eight years I have been forced to begin to gain a love for myself. For any of you that have felt the way that I have felt these past 11 months know that it is an incredibly lonely and painful process. Yet I am grateful. I am grateful for the AWAKENING of who I was as a person. I've realized certain things about myself that I didn't realize when I was with him. Things I do, or ways I react. It's never easy to recognize that the confused little girl in the mirror is you or that your heart/ brain is capable of such intense damage. Even though Brent (oh gosh, yes I said his name) and I have almost been apart for a year now my heart and soul are still so so so broken. I STILL have so much more learning to do, but the possibilities for me are open and endless.
Since I have nothing, I literally can do anything...
If anyone has any suggestions feel free to chime in now!